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　　Revolutionary Road的影评，我罗哩罗嗦说了许久都没说清楚的问题，人家三两句就说清楚了。唉，我就说，写作的天分是羡慕不来的。干净的、利落的语言与干净的、利落的剖析：

　　http://www.douban.com/review/1640413/

心情很坏时需要写信来发泄

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In China, we were educated to be antitheists from early school years. I joined a “church group” in university, however, partly because I was skeptical about the atheism propaganda of the government, and partly because those bible, sheep things did appeal to me. (now I think I took it as an exotic fairy tale thing…incredibly romantic, hehe) I agree with you that there is something bad about religions as I was once IN a religion. I don’t think there is anything enlightening about a religion, at least not in the religious sense. Those stuff only makes sense when good and / or wise people employ them to work out their own philosophies and formulas that benefit others. It’s more likely to see hypocrites do bad things in the name of God, though.

And it’s always like this: even if these big and powerful entities - a religious group, a corporate or a country – are established for good purpose (or it’s necessary to do so), finally it’ll be manipulated by the minority. We individuals, most of us, are injured without noticing it. This is the basis of my thoughts, which has probably made me a very critical person. I hope you don’t mind my being too radical. You may raise objections, I won’t mind.

About lawyers, think about it: why do we make the constitutional law, based on which other laws and regulations are made and enacted? It’s about allocating interests, rights and obligations among all citizens. All citizens…not just the rich and the intelligent. And the legal system is now developing into such a ridiculously complicated thing, complicated enough for anything law-related to appear in a pretentious way. Sometimes it's vain. When it comes to the legal persons that I deal with at work, I shall say SOME of them are doing shitty things to make themselves important, or to show to their boss: hey, I’m worth the rate. I mean, it’s still understandable if these people are not valued that that that more than an honest craftsman or those street food guys, or they don’t think themselves superior to others. But yes, they are.

I’m sorry that I have to work for expats, too. It’s too easy to sense their arrogance in your everyday work. When they speak of “local”, they are usually indicating “inferior”, “regressive”, “bad taste”, “messed up management”, and sometimes “cheats”. What saddens me more is that these accusations are not all wrongly placed… Sometimes I find myself using “local” to refer to bad-looking creative work, too, and I do loathe myself. YES, I LOATHE MYSELF.

Sorry I’ve complained just as much as you. I feel very depressed and hopeless at this moment, so let’s talk about your vacation.

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突然觉得《桃花扇》的结局很有味道

　　因为小时候也看了不知道哪版的黄梅戏或电视剧，印象中是侯方域降了清，李香君心灰意冷于是出家。这一种是寻常的电视剧情节，没什么意思。倒不如大彻大悟，相忘于江湖来得好。周末看了Admiral，Google了崖山海战和“君王死社稷”的崇祯。也看了不同版本的帝女花，觉得TVB让马浚伟和佘诗曼不死实在是荒唐。有一天我改msn签名档作“世上最优美深沉的感情是亡国恨”，我头儿其实是个外国人，就在那边问我什么意思，我就说：errr...亡国恨like Russian aristocrats lost their homeland...

　　写兴亡沧桑总是很有味道的。更甚于儿女情长。

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张道士：何物儿女，敢到此处调情。（从侯、李中间将扇子撕裂掷地）这清净道场，那容得狡童游女，戏谑混杂。
侯方域：此话差矣。从来男女室家，人之大伦，离合悲欢，情有所钟，先生如何管得？
张道士：哈哈哈！痴虫啊痴虫，你看那皇城墙倒宫塌，蒿莱遍野，这秦淮，长桥已无片板，旧院瓦砾满地，萧条村郭，只几个乞儿饿殍。你道国在哪里，家在哪里，君在哪里，父在哪里，偏是这点花月情根，就割他不断么？
【离亭宴带歇指煞】
（唱）俺曾见金陵玉殿莺啼晓，秦淮水榭花开早，谁知道容易冰消。眼看他起朱楼，眼看他宴宾客，眼看他楼塌了。这青苔碧瓦堆，俺曾睡风流觉，将五十年兴亡看饱。那乌衣巷不姓王，莫愁湖鬼夜哭，凤凰台栖枭鸟。残山梦最真，旧境丢难掉，不信这舆图换稿。

侯方域：几句话，说的小生冷汗淋漓，如梦忽醒。
张道士：你可晓得了？
侯方域：弟子晓得。
张道士：你可晓得？
李香君：弟子也晓得了。
张道士：好。既然都晓得了，与他们换了道扮。
[侯方域、李香君换道袍]
[张道士恢复老赞礼装扮]
侯方域：大道才知是
李香君：浓情悔认真。回头皆幻景，
侯方域：对面是何人……

老赞礼：（唱）诌一套哀江南，放悲声唱到老。

南京！南京！

　　好吧我只是想说，这片子我就不打算看了。首先是不喜欢惊叹号的使用，第二看到导演声泪俱下讲述影片的主旨，还是觉得很主旋律很高调，不能鞭挞入里。当然这是未经实践的揣测。

　　前段时间看了著名的《鬼子来了》，这样的电影很难让人心情愉悦，但那恐怕才是实情。曾经看过的一篇评论如是说：

民族不等于居民，有待于政治建构。30年代民国可称为民族者，绝不超过百分之十人口。爱国运动左右政治不过士大夫一小撮而已，近于杯中风暴。民众真实态度近于观潮派，并非绝不可能接受二度满清。故汪兆铭声言，非尽锄傀儡无望胜利，蒋氏则云不畏鲸吞但畏蚕食，其心皆信民众乐于接受任何政府，非以绑票式焦土抗战不能防止顺民迎新主。不幸汪蒋皆不脱布尔乔亚温情主义，能知不能行。能行者另有人在。

向来，老百姓只要能过日子，什么都是无所谓的。倘若在侵略者治下日子反而好过了，天长日久时过境迁，亡国恨也就不再是什么亡国恨。就好比无论多少汉人为清初的剃发令掉了脑袋，顶着不堪入目的金钱鼠尾活下来的，仍然是大多数。也不能数谁更高尚谁更卑劣，面对生存我们似乎都没资格讨论这个问题。《鬼子来了》里，说书的唱我们和皇军八百年前是一家，听来无耻之极，人家也无非是为了生活。人一生也没有多少个八年，希望是会被磨掉的。

　　但《鬼子来了》里比较有趣的是，除了国人的麻木、愚昧与一盘散沙状之外，还能看到一些根深蒂固的中国品性。比如马大三不敢也不肯杀掉花屋与翻译这两个烫手山芋，除了懦弱之外，也出自中国人骨子里的忠直善良。这种善良或许是愚蠢的——这是战争时代，在屈辱的日据地区，而对方是侵略者与汉奸——在中国人的传统观念里，杀孽仍然是不可触犯，一辈子也洗不干净的。联想到《清凉寺钟声》里，羊角奶奶说她一辈子接生过很多婴儿，有寡妇养的也有闺女生的，可孩子来到世上总要想办法养活。就是这种品性，正看是好生之德，反观则是东郭先生的愚昧致命之处。以前看《唐朝豪放女》的评论，也说这种片子是“中国在骨子里”的：鱼玄机杀了侍婢绿翘而获罪，一直暗恋绿翘的乐师在看到鱼玄机被押赴刑场之时，眼神里仍然闪过悲戚和不忍。换作日本片子则又是一回事，一瞬间是衣冠楚楚温文有礼，一瞬间又成了禽兽，几乎要说是沐猴而冠。

　　我情愿这种电影就不要刻意拔高人性，该怎么来就怎么来。人性本身并不高尚，但在某一特定时刻和场景人或许可以做出高尚的事来。绑票式焦土抗战是一种集体狂热，而集体狂热往往不是什么好事，多少罪恶因他之名被做出来。

　　就毫无中心思想地胡言乱语了一番。

我在豆瓣算命

　　自从我在长春观找盲婆婆摸手相之后（虽然她说的全都是废话），突然对四柱、风水、奇门遁甲等发生了浓厚了的兴趣。（Yier同学啊，我这个星座是不是比较好奇门遁甲？）然后我在豆瓣加入一个周易算命馆小组，把根据生日生成的八字排盘给人看，有人回复我这么一段，就还蛮扯的：

　　婚恋比较不顺吧？有感情困扰（好吧，困扰困扰） 18之后明显就陆续有众多异性（errr...）出现 分分和和的
　　如果不是以上所说那就是接触异性（errr...again）多
　　其实你运气一直还行 事业学业上我指的是 (are you sure? maybe i haven't tried my best)
　　18以后比较平顺 38之后会更好 (as a middle age mar...) 后面的几步大运走的都不错
　　因为你八字偏弱 喜印比运 不喜走财伤运
　　你今年运气不错 (hope it'll prove to be true in the coming 7 months)
　　06’07有过恋爱吧 08年有分手迹象
　　如果要是未婚的话就是上述
　　如果结婚的话 08年就是有口舌之争09继续口舌（那么真幸运啊）
　　如果打算结婚的话 09年应该是结婚（with whom...）
　　学历应该较高 (errr....compared with whom)
　　为人依赖心强 (not really) 言行力求合乎中庸 不喜标新立异及惹是生非(haha i'm so low profile) 不缺钱花 （那是不爱花，不是不缺钱）
　　重感情 重精神和物质之均衡发展 在外吃饭机会多吧？（作为一个宅女……大概是说没人做饭给我吃）
　　未来老公多半不是本地人或者你嫁远方（好吧这个很强大，不枉我一直搞长距离-。-||）